There's never a right time to say goodbye

Well, its June 2, and its been exactly nine months and one day since I left home. I feel like I just left, and at the same time, it feels like I've been here forever. In less than two weeks, I'll be home.
Some people might think that I'm so ready to come home, and if you asked me two weeks ago if that were true, I would have said,"Yes" without a second thought.... but now, that is not the case.

This week was sure a busy one. We were preparing for our first annual speech competition in which a group of twelve finalists competed for the title and the grand prize of an Ipad. As part of the program, my little dancers were asked to perform.
It was during our last rehearsal, when my group of almost 20 students( one little boy) were going through the dance, that it all hit me.
 "
Open the eyes of my heart Lord... I want to see you... You're holy, holy holy."

 All the students gestured to their hearts and looked up at heaven. It was at this moment that I broke down in tears.
This has been exactly my prayer for the past month. I was feeling confused about life and  about God and His plan for my life, and I was asking him to open my eyes to see Him and the reasons He brought me here. And thats just what happened. I saw it right in front of my eyes. These students worshipping through dance and singing their hearts out. I could feel the presence of the Lord just speaking to my heart. I don't know exactly what it said, but the message was clear in my spirit. The void I was previously feeling was filled and it poured out in my tears of joy.

So now, my answer would have to be, "No, I'm not really excited to go home." This has been such a journey. Hard and long, though it may have been, it was essential, but also enlightening.  At times, I didn't see the point through the montony of the schedule but I learned something new everyday and I taught something new everyday. It has been that exchange of knowledge that I believe is the reason I came. To learn and to teach. About myself and God, and the world at large.

Just the thought of turning to the last page in this chapter of my life is enough to get me going(crying.) I'm so sad to leave my friends and students but I'm so thankful to be able to call them that. I'll never be the same after this.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.